Awakening to a Higher Venus Consciousness – June 3, 2021

Awakening to a Higher Venus Consciousness – June 3, 2021

As I lay in bed this morning not wanting to get up yet I landed on something about my own consciousness and my natal Venus and all it is connected to in my chart. I might not have landed on this new awareness without the late-night chatting with another friend last night supporting them and chatting about their chart and the chart of their partner at this critical time in their relationship. Venus by transit entered the sign of Cancer yesterday early in the morning where I live. Her ingress to Cancer activating a trine with transiting Jupiter at 2 degrees Pisces, which is presently conjunct my Mars and near my Moon/Sun midpoint of 3 degrees Pisces. 

As I lay there the planetary symbols and a few charts swirling in my head as each planet and house ruled by Venus became highlighted as I made new connections. Pulling the threads on Venus this morning really has me diving into one of the most important planets in my soul’s evolution this life. Venus is in Sagittarius in my 8th house (Placidus) square to my lunar nodes that are south node in Virgo and North Node in Pisces, in evolutionary astrology in Jeffrey W. Green’s material is called a skipped step. Though I think I like how one friend, Benny put it – “I don’t like skipped steps, rather I see them as stepping stones to where I’m going.” Beautiful, right?

My Venus rules Taurus, a sign that is intercepted in my 1st house, meaning Taurus is not on the cusp of any houses of my natal chart when drawn using the Placidus quadrant system (one lens, not the only way to draw a chart by the way). Placidus is my main teacher’s house system and it was in most of the astrology books I read earlier on and it worked wonderfully related to the timing of life themes so I prefer it as well for my evolutionary astrology-focused study and for my own astrology practice.  Venus also rules Libra, the sign on my 7th house cusp, my Descendant. 

My Sun is in Sagittarius in the 9th house, at 26 degrees 46’ and my Venus at 17 degrees 55’.  The midpoint of the two is 22 degrees Sagittarius together they make a trine to my Ascendant at 24 degrees Aries 23’.  My prenatal solar eclipse at 18 degrees Aries. 

In a nutshell, I am evolving my consciousness that relates to my worthiness in all matters of Venus, self-worth, self-confidence, money, income, my values, relationships with spouse, other, and how all that with Venus in 8th what is hidden, or occult, or that which was in exile, not surprising with early life trauma, sexual abuse over seven years that conditioned my mind, my heart, soul and where in exile my ability to grasp and truly know my worth was frozen.  The term frozen fits my experience when I experienced abuse.  It describes the separation of my awareness away from my body, a survival mechanism of disassociation when it occurred. In time, unhealed that trauma unfolded in my life in other forms, as depression, self-sabotage, suicidal thoughts at the most challenging life moments, eating issues both lack of nutrition (restricted consumption) to comfort eating, insomnia, and inability to trust others, and back onto limited trust in myself in numerous ways. Unlocking my trauma through therapy, and learning astrology, and understanding the archetypal symbolism, through being able to name it, call it out, speak directly in terms of my experience were critical in my healing journey. Get curious about why it is so powerful to name something to call it out and speak to it. It dives right into Mars and Mercury symbolism, using our voice to express and live authentically who we are.  And now today, a new thread emerges while Mercury is retrograde in Gemini, and Venus just entered Cancer after spending 26 days in Gemini with Mercury.  So, I love that this new awareness of Venus unfolded after chatting with a friend about relationships!

My Venus is connected to my first marriage, which I was the partner that decided to end it when I was near my Uranus Opposition and Saturn opposition.  The father of our daughter, Sydney.  I have never regretted that decision, but I felt compassion for his receiving that news from me which was likely very upsetting that I was not able to grow in our relationship.  My connection had fallen off with him in the emerging trauma that was rising to be healed in 2009-2010, which tripped me right over into the dark night of my soul. I had dreams all through 2008, which I wrote down and was diving in fast to metaphysical subjects after Sydney was born in 2006.  In that spiritual awakening, astrology emerged in a magnificent way through synchronicity and clairvoyance.  

My Venus, so key in relationships, has been through a few revolutions of understanding how it IS in my life and what it shapes for me in my life — essentially what is experienced, made manifest as my awareness of Venus evolves.  I connected with Sydney’s father, CW, on September 6, 2001, our first meeting.  The day the Sun was exactly conjunct my south node in Virgo.  Truly marking that our connection was framed in “unfinished business”.  Not surprisingly we had multiple occasions of deja vu in the first months of our relationship.  My decision away from our marriage, which truly in hindsight was my processing and taking steps toward my values in a new way, but at the same time tripping on emotional attachments to something of my past. (More on that later) 

It’s important to consider how long it took me to find a relationship that moved to the commitment of marriage. I had several relationships that failed in my twenties due to incompatibility in sexuality, values on what I wanted and they wanted, such as family and so forth. As we all do, my values continued to evolve through my adult years, past my Saturn return and really significant changes in what I valued in my forties as transiting Uranus opposed my natal Uranus and Saturn squared my own Saturn and moon again. 

My Sun rules my 5th house of children, but also what I may have struggled with in romantic relationships early in adult life. My Sun in Sagittarius is square to my Pluto in Virgo at 27 degrees, which describes the power struggles I have had not only in my external lived experience but what I struggle within my inner world.  The Sun, the essence of self, connected in a mystical way to the divine in the 9th house, and shining such a magnificent light by trine to my Ascendant, yet struggling in the finite world (Virgo) with self-worth and the battle within that rumbles beneath all my early experiences.  My soul seeks a new serenity and peace (Taurus moon) in the world of matter (Saturn Taurus) and the labyrinth that I have wandered in that journey — all there for me to realize the power within Venus, in myself for love. Sometimes, like today she emerges with a magnificent new awareness. 

When my first marriage ended in divorce, which I started in 2010, but it was not complete until Feb 28, 2012, I really wondered about what connects us, the magnetism, why we are drawn to certain souls, but I was thinking about it from a rather first or second layer view of values.  Not quite grasping the bigger weight of what “informed” my consciousness and thus what emerges.  My thoughts then were of my spiritual awakening emerging, a past love that I had thought was returning into my life when I had a vision on April 14, 2010.  It was a catalyst moment, but how I interpreted shaped other decisions.  Later, I would learn that my vision revealed (illuminated) the coming death of that past love, not that they were returning to me, but rather they were returning to the Divine Light of God. I did not know that at the time but other synchronicities informed me I was on the path I needed to be too. I understand now why I traveled certain paths.  I needed to relive something to heal it. I needed to also have an otherly realm experience to really truly understand the infinite love in a waveform.  Breathtaking and unconditional love changes you at the cellular level.  It can take time though to integrate that experience. 

My Venus natally in Sagittarius, the sign of the explorer, the adventurer, the traveler, the philosopher, the teacher. Venus in Sagittarius needs boundaries, but ones that are quite loose or harder to see so commitment does not suppress that adventurous spirit, which is the magnetism to partners of interest — especially for a heterosexual woman in a relationship. My Venus is trine to Sydney’s father’s Venus in Leo and Jupiter in Leo (in the 12th behind his Ascendant), so I do understand why we had an attraction and we built a life together for 9 years and created our daughter who absolutely is a gift to our lives. His Ascendant in Leo conjunct trine my Sun too, and conjunct my Lot of Fortune in the late degrees of Leo in my 5th house. Not surprisingly our relationship and marriage created a daughter and it would have unfinished business to unfold and live again.  I am glad I did, it added so much to my life, even the most difficult emotional experiences in our divorce and having to find a way back, that I deserved respect in the role as a co-parent, which when you flip it around is another way to inform the universe of my worthiness to have my relationship with my daughter, a lens to it on its own without the constant interruption from her father’s emotional over-extension.  More on that later.  I am also glad that these decisions were enabling me to speak up for myself, what I desired, what I needed in a relationship as I evolved and that as I made new choices within relationships I was informing the universe I am worthy of love in a meaningful way.  Each small decision I made that supported a higher connection was a relationship grounded in a deeper love, which reflected back to me love that I was able to receive into my heart.  The magnetic pull (feminine) of Venus, but also the loop of love that occurs when this is operating in partnership. Even with my Venus in a masculine fire sign of Sagittarius, I was learning more about feminine magnetism. 

My Venus is the one major love connection with my present husband’s chart. My Venus is within 3 ½ degrees of his rising sign of Sagittarius.  A new view of magnetism with my Venus connected quite close to his AScendant and how I feel so loved by my present husband and how he embodies it with his Venus in Taurus, which is near his Sun and Mercury in Taurus all connecting to an earth trine with his Jupiter, Moon, and Saturn in Capricorn, with his North Node in Virgo.  His Venus at 13 Taurus is widely opposed by his retrograde Neptune in Scorpio at 7 degrees. His Pluto in Virgo, powerfully emerging from a direct station when he was born trine to his retrograde Jupiter in Capricorn (which by progression was on my own Sun when we met in 2014).  His Pluto in Virgo exactly opposite my Moon/Sun midpoint at 3 degrees Pisces! And conjunct my ruling planet Mars in Pisces at 2 degrees 26’. In addition, his Chiron is in Pisces conjunct my Mars and his Mars at 2 Aries 56’ is conjunct my Chiron!  Our wounded part of self, fusing with the others’ Mars energy — the energy of courage and free will in evolutionary astrology.  Growth happens when we acknowledge our fears and continue to take action courageously toward LIFE.

My Venus is getting another deep dive to evolve and today is my first glimpse at that with astrology and what bubbled to the surface this morning from all the chart discussions I had with a friend late last night. Venus consciousness is informing me of my connection to my present husband in a new light, which I had never picked up on until today. 

My Venus rules my Moon-Saturn conjunction in Taurus. Sits in the derived 12th house of my husband’s chart IF I look at just the 7th house of the partner. However, pulling on the thread of derived houses, I am his third wife — so 7th house for his first wife (Mercury), 9th for second wife (Leo), and 11th house for third wife (Scorpio = Mars/Pluto!).  His 11th house is Scorpio in Placidus  — but Libra by Whole Sign House.  His chart has interception of Aquarius/Leo within the 2nd and 8th houses.  His chart also reflects wide experiences of 1st/7th (self and other) and 2nd/8th house themes (his values/self-worth and that of partners). Learning and evolving his love nature as a man providing and protecting (work) and his health matters, but also the blindspot of Uranus in Leo in the 8th related to the needs of partners. It boils down to a lot of evolution in the themes of Venus via the Taurus (matter/love/simplicity/security) and Libra archetypes (relationships/balance) for my husband, and with me, as his wife, I am a mirror back to him on so many of the themes that emerge from the depths of Scorpio.  His dreams are rather interesting too, sometimes rather difficult to understand the symbolism, other times it is crystal clear. Rather fascinating to land on this broader insight this morning. 

As a side note, what a dilemma trying to figure out appropriate house systems on derived houses (Placidus or Whole Sign House or Porphyry), they all work, just a different lens on your view for whatever you might wish to explore with astrology. I wonder about his 11th house (and 12th) house with Scorpio and the opposition of my husband’s Neptune to his natal Venus in Taurus at 13 degrees 55 minutes. His own experience of surrender or loss relative to his desire nature, or children (5th house Taurus for him), and how that manifests as security needs in connection with lover (Venus in Taurus), his 5th house in Placidus, and it is the sign on the 6th house cusp for him.  Themes for him include understanding his own feminine nature that was lost in surrendering (or a death) through a Scorpio archetype experience of friends, or with groups.  My husband dislikes groups especially when we are together. He cannot fathom why other couples would ever do fun things together. I understand his perception of this even more with the aspect of Neptune opposite (widely) to his Venus. He loves natural beauty in women, he deeply appreciates art and music immensely, he loves opera, Taurus, and Venus so embedded in the framework of who he authentically is. All the love connections I register with him in our relationship and value deeply inform me of why I love spending time with him. His Mercury in Taurus within 3 degrees of his natal Sun (24 Taurus) is the ruler of his North Node in his 9th house, shaping his beliefs in finite and earthly practical ways.

Today I was able to see deeper into the symbols that cross between the planetary connections of our charts through Venus. For me, Peter is my second husband in this life. Using the derived house technique that is the 9th house, where my Sun in Sagittarius shines brightly to my Aries Ascendant. My Sun also squares my natal Pluto in Virgo.  The power struggle that exists in my marriage is between the polar opposites in many planetary connections of my husband Peter and my daughter Sydney.  Their lunar nodes are tightly opposite, her North Node in Pisces is his South Node. Peter’s son who is with us forty percent of the time near the same age as my daughter also has this North Node in Pisces but with Mars exactly conjunct Peter’s south node. Sydney struggles sometimes to connect with Peter and Andy and even me sometimes.  Recently a new level (teenager) of power struggles surfaced in her time with us (I co-parent with her Sydney’s father so she has two homes 50/50 residence).  She avoids Peter often and struggles with allowing me to feed her meals. It is a battle I’d never win, so I do my best to provide food that she will want to cook herself, and sometimes feed Peter and Andy a meal together. During holidays, for whatever reason, it works and there is harmony and we all have fun together.  During the kids’ week, I have a handful of meals (really only about five meals) that I prepare that she is comfortable enough to eat with everyone else. My present family is my daughter Sydney, my husband Peter, and his youngest son at home Andy, and even more illuminating is our connections via our lunar nodes, or the skipped step planets (stepping stones), and the rulers of our lunar nodes. It is rather mind-blowing how many connections between us. I have a healthy awareness and understand the ways that seem unimaginable but are the reality that our souls find the pathways needed to evolve! The Taurus-Scorpio and Gemini-Sagittarius are really significant for my present family.

My Moon and Saturn in Taurus rule my parental axis. My early Venus consciousness as a child was set in my awareness through the choices and decisions of my parents. One failing I have pondered is the lack of awareness and the suppression of their own Venus consciousness in some ways which overflowed in unrealistic romanticism or disillusionment with the inflation of ego. My father with natal Sun conjunct Neptune in Libra of his third house with Venus conjunct Neptune within a 7-degree orb, ruling his 10th house of career.  And within his 10th house, his moon, and North Node in Taurus (opposite at the nadir (IC) and Chiron in Scorpio. Saturn in Leo conjunct his Ascendant at 19 degrees with Pluto in Leo only 5 degrees separating at 14 degrees — square his south node in Scorpio with Jupiter in Scorpio conjunct.  My father in life, my first archetype of the father with Pluto and Saturn in Leo square his Ascendant and square his nodal axis, moon in his North Node of Taurus and Jupiter on his South Node in Scorpio. My father was conditioned by his strict and abusive father who was abused as a child by a stepfather because his father was killed when he was just under two years old. The wounds over generations unhealed beget more wounds. The need to control (for security/power) then distorts in adulthood if unhealed.   Unraveling the life experiences that conditioned him from early life to adulthood explains a lot of what my family experienced in the inflation of his Sun Libra conjunct Neptune and Libra, he struggled with communication and siblings, but Neptune connected so closely with his Venus also expanded the Taurus of his midheaven. Ceres in Taurus retrograde within a degree of his midheaven of 7 degrees Taurus, speaks to loss and grief related to his Venus. My experience of my father was very difficult, one of my abusers as a child. He was human, flawed in many ways, captured by powerful archetypes of Leo square Scorpio to his south node and family, Mars in Leo at 2 degrees square his Mercury in Scorpio, and how they expressed into our family’s lived experience when Pluto moved through Virgo, Libra, and Scorpio by transit.  I am learning forgiveness by looking at it with compassionate eyes at a distance and through astrology that informs my consciousness.  I am not responsible for his choices, only my response to heal.  He passed from this earth just before the pandemic on February 29th, 2020, which at the time many of my siblings drove to see him a few weeks prior whereas I was at a function to receive my master’s certificate for astrology in southern California.  I had astrological knowledge to inform my siblings that it would be their last visit and to go before the end of the month, as I could see it looming in the transits at the end of the month. I settled on sharing a video, sticking to my boundaries that felt right for me. Life evolves, we do not have to stay stuck on past wounds. We do have to work on them as they re-emerge and return to that inner place that guides us on our life path, this is where I am now. Astrology continues to guide me and illuminate my connections and the archetypal energies at play and active in my life.

This new Venus awareness today also reminded me of my Moon and Saturn weakness, which is reflected via the lens of an intercepted sign of Placidus house.  I have earned really good money in my adult life and made wise investment choices.  But I also struggle with the imbalance that happens with the accrual of debt, widely swinging back and forth with Uranus in Taurus and opposing Scorpio. I wonder if I will finally nail this down in my consciousness by the time Uranus exits Taurus in July 2025, the year Sydney heads off to college. 

Taurus and Scorpio are intercepted signs of my chart from the Placidus quadrant house system. Venus and Mars and Pluto ruling those signs — but in that lens (Placidus) my Moon, Saturn in Taurus, and my Jupiter and Neptune in Scorpio are harder to connect to and more importantly, are harder to integrate into my consciousness and experience.  However, I feel a shift again today, something more deeply related to the evolution of my Venus.  A new revelation of what has been hidden from my conscious understanding is coming to light.  My Moon with a high need to materialize things as an expression of my moon, but that is the tripwire to debt accumulation.  My husband is paying off our home in Portland at a fast clip and stresses back to me to refrain from debt for his own security! And yet, it is still present, I’ve not mastered it yet — but now I see a loop within the energy of the archetypes related to being secure!  I know this now, I can see it with new clarity.  I am also a risk-taker, Venus in Sagittarius — I’m willing to take some risk toward realizing a dream, such as debt for a mortgage and even for marketing or promoting something I value, which I did this past ten months that put me in more debt at the same time I was helping stabilize my own mother (with my husband’s help) acquiring a mortgage to secure her when chaos ensued in her marriage that could not contain (Saturn-Pluto Capricorn opposed her rising sign within 6 degrees. Helping her with some repairs added to my debt, my husband’s help came from his savings, even though the house in time (Saturn) will show value, but for however long it contains my own mother for the rest of her life. 

My Moon in Taurus from early on (and especially at my Saturn return) sought security, especially financial security in relationships. I ended up buying my own home during my Saturn return back in 1999. Though I struggled to stick with it and rented out my home as I was emotionally connected to another relationship that was quite unavailable in hindsight, that had a pull on me in 2000 considering a move to San Diego.  That pull though, had me at a conference for work as I explored what it might take to move there and in the process won a car at the event.  More unusual was the very clear experience of a divine message moment unfolding and revealing to me a clairaudient part of myself to an out-of-time voice.  Receiving in my inner ear the exact words of the announcer of my win of the drawing a few minutes prior to the actual event, which I brushed off as being silly.  It was precise and undeniable when it happened.  At the time Pluto was transiting Sagittarius.  When I won the car, I sold it back to the dealership where it came in for a small loss, but then turned that into buying a home (downpayment)which helped support my sister for a few years.  That entire experience unfolding many spiritual lessons on how I may impact and influence but not ultimately change the situation for a person so dramatically for someone evolving their soul!  A soul has to acknowledge its worthiness of RECEIVING, and then as it integrates at higher and higher levels of self-acceptance and worthiness, elevated awareness of love will emerge!  Even I am still learning this at different layers of my consciousness.  My sister, also a survivor of childhood abuse and the trauma that needed healing too. The universe will bring another view through another relationship and operate something new to see.  It will take the consciousness deeper into further a-ha moments of relationship with SELF. The sharing of the house with my sister made the news, not that I intended that — it just felt awesome to support my sister and her kids. 

My moon in Taurus related to security and money matters and self-worth is even more significant with Saturn retrograde conjunct my moon. The Saturn paternal archetype with a  strong sense of enmeshed control of my moon, my feeling nature, and my body.  The early lessons of being a kid growing up in a religious household and where the female form is forced into modesty and often picked up as shame for having any shape that is in other’s view provocative, which was placed upon me only to wear one-piece swimsuits because those who wore bikinis were too revealing. Sending the message that liberated women in bikinis were a negative thing, thus beautiful and free women were a negative thing.  

My daughter’s natal chart and who she continues to emerge is so interesting and often has me wondering about her past life experiences related to her own lunar nodes and her south node Virgo (Mercury) and her north node Pisces (Jupiter/Neptune).  My daughter is a young author (published the first book at age 13) and has one more written almost ready to publish and another one 80% written, and with five planets in Scorpio (Mars, Venus, both cazimi the Sun) is it any surprise her books are the story of a Dragon Princess in the heroine’s journey to save a sibling and her parents with her friends!  I love it, so creative and I have visibility to the archetypes at play.  She’s a young engineer, building Remotely Operated Vehicles for underwater (ROVs) with her dad. My daughter’s Chiron at 4 degrees Aquarius is exactly trine by degree the prenatal conjunction of Sun and Uranus in Libra at 4 degrees Libra, which also includes Mercury and Jupiter (September 27, 1969) which in that chart has Chiron in Aries exactly opposite at 4 degrees.  Another layer of perspective from the Sun-Uranus synodic cycle into which I was born, which then also influences the life of my daughter from the early conditioning I still had in my memory (12th house) that would be part of her natal heritage. My trauma wounds, embedded in the symbolism of that prenatal conjunction with Venus in Virgo in the 10th of that chart.  The only planet I have in an air sign is Uranus in Libra at 8 degrees when I was born, except for Ceres, not a ruler planet but a very significant dwarf planet within the feminine archetypes. Sydney’s Neptune at 17 Aquarius conjunct Ceres, both are conjunct my Ceres at 16 Aquarius. Liberation happens through perhaps catalyst moments, but the intention of the soul is breaking free from past conditioning of the mind. Perhaps one day, my daughter will read this and have illumination on that of her own life as she makes choices to grow on her path of self-individuation. That conjunction in Aquarius was illuminated during my divorce years with her father by my secondary progressed Sun and Venus in Aquarius. Peeling the layers, revealing deep wounds of grief within feminine archetypes.

Recently a movie, Enola Holmes, on Netflix sent her into the stratosphere that touched and ignited something in her while watching it. Prior to watching it, when discussing her dreams I wondered if a past life was connected to an incredibly powerful, yet wounded (maybe poisoned) woman suffragette. My daughter has a deep rage related to the overpowering of the feminine from patriarchy. One day I gave her rage a name so she could put language to the storms within after a rage of frustration when building a Lego carousel one weekend. I called it le petit volcan — or the little volcano. She still laughs a little bit when I call it that, but we work together sometimes to channel it to get it out in pictures she draws or painting three-headed creatures, whatever works for her.  A thread within my own consciousness that continues to trickle out from the depths of my Moon (ruler of my 4th house of roots, family DNA, heritage). I am painstaking aware that she embodies some of the rage I could never reach up to that point in my life prior to her birth. There is a perfection in life I do not fully understand so I do not judge it, but it is incredibly hard sometimes to have an expanding conscious awareness to see where things emerge.  My daughter has parents who have suffered abuse or incredible loss, with some healing prior to her birth.  However, so much healing came later in 2009-2013 later after I had ended my marriage to her father.  I will dive more into that in another post.  

Here, I want to simply expand how my daughter’s Scorpio planets (5) activate my Scorpio Jupiter which is conjunct tightly to her Mars, Venus, and Sun.  My natal Jupiter (Scorpio 7th) rules my Sun in Sagittarius and Pisces (12th)  and my Neptune (7th) — which symbolically speaks to the polarity she has with my husband Peter with his three planets in Taurus.  The recent lunar eclipse at 5 degrees Sagittarius (May 26, 2021) was on her natal Moon at 6 degrees. Her moon is aspected by a square with her natal Uranus in Pisces at 11 degrees in her 8th house with a 4-5 degree orb. This bubbled up in our experience as a heated quarrel over expired deli meats and cheeses that were in the refrigerator that I had not yet thrown out and her being upset taking it out and placing it on the counter with a note that it could hurt someone and she was doing that to protect us, calling out Andy especially (sibling by marriage), but like a brother to her.  I told her it was not my intention, but an oversight with my busy schedule the weeks prior to clean out the refrigerator. However, she landed something else for me, as I recalled what my college roommates and even my husband have spoken of often, my saving leftovers for later consumption but then mostly uneaten and going bad in the fridge. Food scarcity in my teens was a real experience and it ripples through some of my and my siblings’ experience to this very day in how packed our pantries are now.  With education and careers with consistent incomes, we can afford to fully stock our cupboards, but sometimes we buy too much so we do not always see what we already have to create healthy meals!  Slowly we learn, we learn life is abundant, and the program of our early lives gets an upgrade to that wisdom. Slowly, because Saturn has a way of re-activating our history of scarcity in waves through Saturn’s unfolding cycles in relation to our natal chart. 

The moon rules my 4th house of family and home. Saturn in my chart rules my 10th house of public persona, my career. Saturn also co-rules my 11th of group consciousness, the house of fortune in Traditional astrology, but also friends, and what we steward from our career. One could argue mother or father symbolism of 4th and 10th or vice versa, but in my case they are so tightly connected they really frame the challenge with my parental experience and understanding my relationship to security at home and my security (which will influence choices) and mastery or leadership potential of my career life.  What status I find acceptable or legacy I seek to leave from this life is all my 10th house of Capricorn. My emotional life is tightly bound or fused with Saturn, what I come to understand through figuring out my own limits, and the conditioning of my mind from my parents of my childhood and my youth and my own “fate”.  One could argue that the “fate” of my parents and family are karmic, and ripened this life – but it can also be said that the structure of the archetypes and how it plays out over time (transits/progressions) and the soul evolving into greater awareness happens because of the energy used in the struggle to individuate.  Like the chick that pecks its way out of the shell into life.  In that effort, it strengthens its body to live and endure life!  An egg that is broken for hatching jeopardizes the fledgling in its strengthening of effort needed to support its life.   

In evolutionary astrology, we look at a larger view, the soul’s view.  Meaning of life through understanding what the soul is seeking to experience (or re-experience) to know oneself and to individuate. As we heal we progress our conscious awareness of all that we are. In this awareness of our connection, our spirituality, we understand with greater clarity why we have the birth chart we do and how that energizes a new level of consciousness for us and how we interact with all of life. A heightened spiritual relationship unfolds in our consciousness and then we ride that new wave as we continue our journey back to Divine Source, our soul’s return home. Dane Rudhyar’s book An Astrological Triptych dives into that journey home to God/Goddess consciousness, Sol, the sun of our solar system that evolves us toward Galactic consciousness. Venus consciousness continues to bloom in my life and I am eternally grateful!